yesterday
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wenta hospital with mum & dad , aunt & grandma to visit grandpa . & i realised that he became skinny ! really skinny than before . heartache lahs ): he is inside like bout three months already because he got this infection from that hospital . tha fees is like $8000 . i mean if its not because of tha infection , grandpa also dun need to say fer months . & they want my mum to pay all that with all her medifund . then when she gets older , what if she have illnesses . choy ! what will happen to her ? this is so unreasonable . i was so pissed off , so while tha doctor is explaning , i kept staring at him . i felt like giving him a punch >.< BAHHH !

dad tried to talk to him & asked fer financial help . because grandma & other aunts do not have the medifund . only mum have . so they cant expect mum and the rest to pay with cash . as if we are rich family ! then then , they kept talking , mumbling , sort of complaining . it continues & continues till it stops when the adults found a way to solve tha problem ! seriously , tha doctor is having difficulties & we knw that . so dad have to talk to the social worker first . if the case cant be look into again , grandma & aunts will look for i-dont-know-what-that-person-called for financial help , like my big uncle who is in mental hospital & i suddenly miss him so much although i've nvr seen him before because mum dont let me go there with her ): sad.

after that so-called meeting , we went off & dad drove us to bp plaza , had some shoppings . went home ! : DD

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today !

i had FOUR pathetic hours of math lesson . tiring , sleepy , moody , blah blah blah ~ etc . tml is the same too so that after christmas , i dont have to come back anymore ! so i shall suffer now fer this week . hais ! after tha tiring math lesson , i went to wait fer winnie outside school . & waited fer michelle . she went off , winnie & i wenta greenridge makan . saw linming , like crap ! lols , he didn change lahs . still the same , somemore stay in the same block with me .

i went home after that ! winnie went to find jeanie that zibi . im watching tv later (:

i shall hypnotize myself ~
slim down , slim down , slim down ! LIMIN !

I BOUGHT A CUTE PINK CACTUS HOME : DDD


unloved ; i said .

here to post ! : D ytd night wenta alvinn's birthday party at his house . i will cut it short , im just so damn lazy to write everything out in details . met michelle at senja , bought presents fer him . then decided to walk from bp plaza to his house . lols , its quite far . nvm lahs , exercise mahs . reached there , saw alot of my school peeps . christine , natalie , peipei , eric , shandy , etc . alot lohs . didn eat alot . jian fei (: hehe .

went to tha highest floor with michelle & nat . tha view is so prettaye lahs . alot of stars . chit-chat . saw my primary school friend too . then we all gathered up to highest floor & he started to talk bout ghost story . ohkays , i didn get shocked . phew ~ hehs . went home with nat & michelle like about ten plus . cabbed home , michelle & i wenta to greenridge 7eleven bought things . she came my house to ton . hehe ! are u jealous , jeanie ? : x at about midnight three plus slept.

this morning , ate breakfast . & she went home .

overall , it's fun and enjoyable ehs (:

jeanie , lets go out soon .

MIN

im bored & i guess im going out tml . yeps , to alvinn's birthday party . ouhs , he needs doraemon ! hahaa : D i shall buy alot of them for him . && tml is timothy's birthday . im wondering if i should do a blogskin . because im plain lazy but im sick of this blogskin already . how ? duhs , i cant decide.

im reading books ytd & today . i think im gonna be bookworm soon . hahs ! but can improve my english uhs .

things are changing & i've no control in them .
my agony *


unloved.

love it , it'll love you back.




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im feeling emo today ): sad sad sad . can i skip tml tution ? >.< lazy sia .

i dont understand why he want me to hate him?
for what reason ehs ? T.T

this is stupid .

today is a special day to me . actually , i didnknw what to say . and didn knw how i really feel .. but today is a day i will never forget for life bahs (: its like one year already ,

i miss everything ..

wenta school today , after that went to eat with michelle . chat alot , play alot and then went home . i felt sleepy ehs T.T

min

going out later . wenta school today morning . i was so sleepy , intend to skip but end up still went . & i was late T.T im feeling ):

tml im going out again . perhaps , to the beach ? no idea . im waiting for michelle now . sickening , faster lahs ! >.< im sleeping soon ehs.

lovelove !

a day out to zoo . since many many years .

we can act like a kid and play like hell . but we can have a matured thinking .

a picture can tell thousands words . so i wont say much .

" jeanie , may this friendship last forever . i lovelove you ! :D its been like 3 years soon ... this is fate , you knw (: "

me & jeanie (:


pigs . species like me : x

i dont deny .


snakes . shoo ~ : /

2nd . friendship last ;

i'll stand with tha shortest woodman :D

i cant smile lahs , sicko !

jeanie with tha giraffe :D

jeanie , tha retarded !


penguin . very cute lahs .

felt like watching happy feet , lols .

kangaroo (: jeanie , yr same species.

scenery *

this i dontknw what- monkey hate jeanie .

3rd . sisters uhs .

you see jeanie's head ! like got two horns .

hahaa . stupid birdbird.


zilians . jeanie !


pony pony -tail :DD

retardness . superman ?

hahaa . my POSE (: hehs.


jeanie . zibi ! :D you got so many nicknames lehs.

4th . shot (: 1 2 3

why cant i smile !?! duhs T.T

i tried to talk to this parrot with my niao language .

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i miss winnie & michelle . lets go out soon ohkay ? hehs . after tha zoo thangy , took bus back to cck . & took lrt to greenridge , makan lohs . ate alot -.- how to slim down sehs . went to my house & jeanie helped me in my guides project . thenthen wenta plaza , bought my pencil eyeliner . jeanie say not really good . cheap mahs . hahaa ! she wenta buy her hairband . then met weiming & his cousin . walked home . jeanie got weiming sent her home . good huhs ? hehs .

loves , will be back to post soon . have to send jeanie those pictures.

i think i will leave it alone . i wont think of it anymore . no more . it wont bother me anymore , i promise . i want to be happy like i used to be .

min : DD

have been really vexed this few days . maybe .. that day is coming & it makes me think alot of the past . do i still have feelings for him ? or .. not at all anymore ? its been like one year soon .

but ... the sight of him ...
or is it my feeling for him is too strong that time .
& it got me in wrong idea that my feelings is still there .
he's tha only guy who made me fall for so badly & cry so badly.
12th ? i ... donthave any rights to talk about it anymore ..

i .. dontwant to think of it anymore.